Pictures of Maddie

Here are recent pictures of Madison. Some were taken today, some last week and yes some are left from Easter lol

Things here are going ok, Work is busy, school is hectic, same as usual I guess. I am working on a project for my class now, I thought it was rough getting up in front of class, for this project I have to do it on TV. I am now starting to think about the fall semester, that is coming up fast. I haven't heard anything about any of the scholarships I have applied for yet, I really hope I get at least one. the bill for the fall semester is 1800 buck, and that is without the books I need to buy. I don't know what I am going to do about needing this money, its driving me crazy thinking about it. I want to finish school so bad, I want to prove to myself I can do it, I promised dad and grandma I would finish and get a better job. After I get my AA I want to transfer so I can get my bachelors in Social Work. There have been times in my life when I needed help and I want the opportunity to help others.

just another day here. I was sick yesturday, but I do feel a little better today. Work is hectic, and classes are a lot of fun. I am taking the neighborhood college, and am learning a lot about Hagerstown. In 2 weeks I go out with the fire department, which I think will be fun. The yard sale last weekend went great. mom made money and so did I. I am starting to think about college classes that start in July and more that start in August. I should be hearing soon from all the different scholorships I have applied for

Mothers Day

I spent Mothers Day with my mom, greg, jimmy, denise and madison also came up. We had a wonderful time together. That part of the day was great. I spent a lot of the day thinking about my kids, I miss them so much. Its been 4 years now since they were taken from me. I know in my heart they are in heaven with their grandfather and great grandmother. I know they are in good hands, but my hands wish to hold them, to hug them, to play with them. Alisha, Katrina, and Jr are missed and thought of often not only by me, but by the whole family. on a better note. I am getting ready to celebrate my 15th anniversary on Thursday. It doesn't feel that long at all.

Finals are over, but grades are not posted yet. I just found out a very good friend of mine and her husband were in a horrible car accident. She is in ICU, but her husband didn't make it. He was pronounced dead at the hospital.  I just wish there was something I can do to help her. This past weekend I was at moms, helping her. Work is crazy right now, but other than that I think things are ok. I don't know really, I don't know which way to turn, I get so frustrated at times. My anniversary is coming up, I don't know what to get Greg for that. I have really put him through hell the past few years, He is such a great man, he is very understanding. He is pushing me to finish school and supporting me while I do this.

National Day Of Silence

Tommorrow is the National Day of Silence. You can find out more about this by clicking on the following links, The National Day of Silence----------The Day of Silence. I am the Vice President of C.A.T.S.( Caring Accepting Transistion into Society)  it is a gay-straight alliance at the college. We are having an awareness day where we will have tables set up all around campus with information on them ranging from homelessness, to gay marriage, to hate crimes. We will conclude the event with a special showing of "The Laramie Project" at 7 pm followed by a discussion session

Easter

Here are some pictures from Easter Sunday. We had a wonderful time. We went to my sister in laws mothers house for dinner and got to spoil Madison most of the day. We all had a wonderful day. I just wish dad and grandma was here to be with us to. I miss them both so much. I will be doing another post right after this one on a different subject

 

update on me and more pictures

I am feeling a lot better now. Last night was the first night since surgery that I have been able to sleep most of the night.  I only woke up 1 time at about 4 am. I go tommorrow to the Drs so he can take the packing and the splints out of my nose finally.  Hopefully I will then be able to breathe like a  normal person. Here are some more pictures of Madison taken last weekend.

updated pics, and info

I am feeling a little better today I think. I have been taking my pain meds regularly and they have kept me knocked out. Here are some updated pictures of Madison

surgery today

I had the surgery today on my sinuses. I am feeling ok, I am sleeping a lot. my nose bleeds at times, like when I get up to do anything. Mom is helping with Madison today. I can't wait to hear how that went today. I will write more when I feel better

My Birthday

Yesturday was my birthday. I had to work. Greg took me out to breakfast that morning. We went to IHOP. We had a wonderful meal together then we each had to go to work. After work, I went home and cleaned the house. I knew I would be going to moms Friday night. When Greg got home from work. he came in the door carrying a dozen red roses and a card. We are going to do my birthday at moms on Sunday. Jimmy, Denise and Madison will be coming up also for dinner. We are planning meatloaf, lima beans, mashed potatoes. gravey. salad. and instead of a cake a peanut butter pie.

updated pictures of Madison and update on me

I went to moms this weekend to take her to the Dr yesturday and went to see Jimmy, Denise, and Madison today. I cant believe how big Madison has gotten. She is now about 15 pounds. She is talking up a storm, of course its baby talk, but she talks to us,  she also laughs so much. She is teething now, so she is grumpy and drools all the time lol. I love her so much. I have surgery on the 24th of this month. I am very nervous about it.It will be my birthday on Thursday, and I have to work that day. I am also doing volunteer work at the CAC ( Community Action Council) this week for class. CAC is a place low income people can go to get help with rent, utilities, finding a place to live, and stuff like that. Plus each day after I leave there I have to go to work, so this week will be very long for me. It will be like I am working 12-15 hours a day this week.

update pictures of Madison

I have some more pictures of Madison and the puzzle that mom and I put together a few weeks ago, Grandma bought the puzzle after my dad died, so her and mom could put it together when they moved into their condo. This is one thing that mom and I were able to do together, and it really means a lot to each of us. Its strange how things work, the one person who I thought was my worse enemy turns out has always been my best friend. Class is going really good. I am only taking one class this semester, Social Work With groups. Right now we are talking about family, and we are each taking a look into our own lives and our family, This class is really opening my eyes. I can't believe I have been such a inmature pain in the butt. I should have had my but beat more when I was little, I don't know how mom ever kept from beating me, I would have deserved it.

Hello, here it is the beginning of March already. I have been so busy with work and school and all the doctors. I am having surgery on March 24 for my sinuses. Everything else here is going ok I guess. I havent seen Madison for a while now, they came last week just as I was getting ready to leave moms. Dakota has a vet appt. in the morning to get a shot.
I am also done with the gastro Dr. although I will be on meds the rest of my life. I can't believe I am almost 33 years old. I look at my life, and I really need to continue to change things, although the one thing I know I will never change is my family, expecially Greg. He means everything to me. I am so glad mom and I are getting along now after all these years. I know now that through everything I have done to her, she had every reason to totally turn her back on me, but she hasn't, I can now say she is
one of my best friends